I was always the girl who had a boyfriend or kept cuties on deck. Not because I felt like I needed a boyfriend... I just always happened to have one or something similar to that,
lol. And I enjoyed it. But after a while it got old... I figured maybe I was ready to settle down for real, so I tried that too. And I learned a lot from being in 2 steady relationships. But being single is the best learning experience I've ever had. This is the longest I've ever been single and it's only been about a year and two months now, but I've learned
soooo much! It absolutely amazes me. And I'm proud to say that I'm not the same person I was a year ago, 6 months ago, 3 months ago, or two weeks ago. I feel like I learn something new every single day, and I love it.
At first, I hated being single. I was so USED to having a boyfriend that it was weird for me not to have someone to talk to, or someone to call and say "hey, wanna come chill?" I had to learn how to be there for myself. Kind of like when a baby has to learn to fall asleep on his own. He may fuss, but you can't just run in and comfort him - he has to figure out how to comfort himself. I thought the single life would make me realize that being in a relationship was better for me, but it's the exact opposite. It has made me realize how much I actually want to STAY single.
Reason #1: Men, men, men. Robert Graves once said, "The supply of good women far exceeds the men who deserve them." And I really think that's true! It's ridiculous out here. Nobody is perfect, of course. But come
ooooon... some of these men out here are just a mess. And I'm not settling for anything less than what I think I deserve. I'm a 22 year old woman with a baby. What I look like running around here with a man that's not talking about anything? I'm in the market for a HUSBAND. I'm done with the 3 month relationships. Not saying I want to get married right away, because I really don't even think I will get married, but if I do decide to get into another relationship... he's gonna have to be something special. I just haven't met the right one. Maybe I will, maybe I won't, but nobody knows.
Reason #2: My friends. Oh boy. The way some of these women act about their boyfriends is just out of control. They let these men walk all over them because they're scared to speak up. Every time he does something wrong, they feel they just have to let it go. Put up and shut up. ....Nah. That's called being a pushover. You've been in a relationship for 7 years and he's still doing the same bad things he was doing when you first got together? That's a problem for me. Then you have the ones that can't go anywhere without their boyfriends. All they can do is lay up under him all day. I have a friend that I've known for almost 15 years. She started dating a guy 2 years ago and I've barely spoken to her since. She was like my sister, and that situation really makes me sad. I don't want to become that girl. I want my own identity. And I don't wanna be the girl that sits back and puts up with your crap, either. In fact, I'm NOT that girl. You do
something that bothers me, I'm gonna call you on it. From day ONE. I'll try to be nice. In fact, I might even give you a second chance to see if you do it again. I'm not expecting my man to be perfect. But there are
some things that I just can't deal with. And EVERYBODY feels that way, so don't look at me like I'm crazy. If you just put up with any and everything, then that's something YOU need to work on.
Reason #3: My son. I'm a single mother. I have more than enough problems in my life and if you're just going to be an added stress, I don't need you. That goes for everybody. I'm past the "play" stage. This is real life... time to wake up and start being serious. I'm not interested in the little boys anymore.
Reason #4: MYSELF. I demand respect. I demand to be treated like a lady. And in return, I'm gonna treat you the w
ay you need and want to be treated. If that means dinner on the table, cool. I got that. If it means a back rub when you've had a long day, I'm down. I know how to treat a man, okay?
Lol. But seriously, I do. And until I find a man that knows how to treat me, I'm staying single!
While I do hope that man is out there, I'm not holding my breath. I'm just living and learning, and loving every minute of it. So to all my ladies who are getting discouraged, don't worry! Don't you want to be ready when God brings that special man into your life? Let him work on you! And let him work on that man too. You don't want him half ready. You want him at his best. Of course it gets hard. We're women. We want to be held at night, we want someone to listen to our problems and to care enough to offer a solution. But that's not all there is to life. There comes a point when we have to learn to do for ourselves. Doesn't it feel good to know that you don't NEED a man? I pity the girls who have to call on their boyfriend to ask what kind of pills to take for a headache. Come on now. What about when he's not around... then what? Co-dependent much? Just be happy with you. Learn to love and appreciate yourself - after all, how can you expect someone else to do it when YOU don't?