It's Time...

So I have made the decision not to mention him in here anymore. Anyone who doesn't care about me is not worth any of my time.

Last night I had to go to the hospital. Long story short, I may have cervical cancer. I have to go see my ob/gyn next week, or sooner if I see fit. I'm scared. But not too scared, because if I did have it, it would be my fault. A couple years ago (yes, YEARS), my doctor said I had some abnormal cells in my nether region. I never went to get the second test because I couldn't afford it. Then when I got pregnant, my new ob/gyn said she also saw some abnormal cells, but I would have to wait until after I gave birth to get checked out again. So a few weeks after pooh was born, I got checked but I don't remember what she said. But I guess I'll know soon enough.

I have made the decision to become more aggressive with my business. I've been sitting back and just kinda goin with the flow. But this is my chance to be WEALTHY and I can't just let it pass me by. I can't! My son needs this. I can't let him down. And besides, I want custody of him.

Yes, I said it. The C word. His dad has shown me that he is not serious about his business or about taking care of his child. Every time I talk to him he is out partying somewhere, not making any money. And if the way he treats me is any indication of how he's going to treat MY BABY, I'm not about to let that happen. I should have filed those police reports when I had the chance.

So I have to get my life together. I might not even have much time left, as scary as that sounds. I can't worry about stupid ass anymore.

It's about me now, and I need to remember that.