I don't like the person I have become in the past few months. Cursing at everyone, being mean to my friends, ignoring everyone else's problems just because I'm hurt and sad. Rolling my eyes when people talk about love and thinking that half of them are stupid. I keep having these mood swings. One minute I'm fine and the next I'm mad over something small, and I can stay mad for days.
I don't even know who I am anymore. I was trying to become a BETTER person. But it seems like all the anger, sadness, and bitterness is holding me back. I feel like I can't shake it and I am destined to hurt forever. Dramatic much? I know... it's like I'm two different people. One day I want people to feel sorry for me and comfort me. The next I don't want to be bothered with anyone. The next I feel like the strongest, most confident woman on Earth. My doctor thinks I'm suffering from PPD. Um... I don't want to be a nutcase, lmao. I don't know, maybe I am depressed. I mean look at me - I'm all over the place. I can't even get my thoughts together long enough to write a decent entry. Although part of that may be because I've been up since 7:00 yesterday morning and have been suffering from a sinus infection for the past week. Sexy, right?
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