I keep reading the e-mail he sent me. It's sad, but at the same time it makes me feel really special, knowing that I'm the only one he's done that for. It made me feel better about some things. I was wondering if he had forgot how good it used to be and if he thought I had always been a bad girlfriend, but it's nice to know he didn't.
So... how do I start this journey to happiness? I'm just going to continue doing the things I love. I'ma continue to better myself. I say "I" a lot, but that's because it's all about ME right now. Guys have approached me lately, some new and some old. Actually, it's funny because ALL of my exes have tried to talk to me within the past 2 days. The one that cheated on me with my best friend (at the time)... he sent me a message talking about how he missed me and he wants to see me when he's back in town. WHAT? And my ex that lives in Chicago, we've been talking a lot. We were on the phone for 4 hours a few nights ago. But nothing is happening there. DEFINITELY not. Just two old friends getting to know each other again. I sure as hell am not ready for a relationship. We've always been really close and we kinda lost it when he started dating his last girlfriend. But one thing I can say about him is that he never hurt me, and he says I'm the only girl that's never hurt him. So no bad history there, which is nice. So... I'm gonna go see him soon... not sure when. He wants to see the baby. I'm gonna stay with one of my girlfriends who is also from Chicago.
I miss my friends so much. I don't have a lot of friends here and I miss having people to hang out with. But I am happy that I can be alone, without being lonely. Not many people can do that.
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